Now that True Blood is back (FINALLY) I feel the need to read through the books even faster then I was attempting to in the first place. The only place I really get to read though is at work when I have some down time and I’ve been slacking hardcore. I have so many books I want to read and of course the Sookie series is first but blah.

Speaking of True Blood – anyone watch the premiere? We had a little TB party with my bff and were like total losers, tuning in at like 8pm anxiously waiting for it to start lol. I was really happy with the first episode. Lots of Pam, Jessica, Lafayette, and Eric. I wasn’t blown away by the episode, but I didn’t expect to be. I knew the first episode was gonna be like a “here is where everyone is” kind of thing so I expect the awesomesauce to begin for real next week

Anyway – was just talking to the hubby via text and he informs me that the reason I woke up this morning to find him on the couch again this morning was because I “kicked him out of bed at 4am”. What? I have NEVER done anything like that in my entire life (I think someone would tell me that) and suddenly at age 26, Im kicking my husband out of bed? Makes no sense and I am only going to assume he is being dramatic. He hasn’t been sleeping well for weeks now and I think he finds it easier to just blame it on me rather then attempt to find the actual cause to the problem. It is rather annoying, Im not gonna lie. And now he just asks me, “is something on your mind?” Im getting really sick and tired of that question. Because lets face it, no one asks you that question unless they believe that something is wrong. So he is dead set that something is wrong when NOTHING is. I mean now something is cause Im pissed that I have been having this idiotic conversation with him for the past 3-4 weeks that he has been getting no sleep. And what other way can I “prove” that nothing is wrong other then the words that are coming out of my mouth? Ugh Im really annoyed right now so its probably best that I close this post for now. Sorry for the abruptness of it but Im gonna go pick up my book and read for a bit, hopefully kill some time since we are leaving at 3:30 today cause they are shutting the power off to our building.

Posted on Jun 15 2010 @ 2:02 pm | Posted In: Family, General, Rants | 1 Comment

Im bored. So Im going to attempt to fill a post with something that will at least be partially entertaining to me later. Will I be successful? Probably not. Will the post be filled with this type of randomness? More than likely.

ANYWAY…

Im probably leaving work an hour or so early today. My dad is in the hospital getting a stint put into his leg to hopefully clear the blockages so that he wont be in pain and will be able to get back to golf lol. Its not a MAJOR surgery, but he’s my father and I want to be there when he wakes up. Hopefully this proedure works (they are confident it will), cause if it doesn’t – he will have to undergo a bypass on his legs =/ And that as anyone knows is major surgery.

We went to dinner at Mike’s moms house last night, was there till almost 11pm. Had a lot of fun though. I think his mom and I are getting there. We never had a BAD relationship, we just didnt really know each other. I think we are getting there with one another and could potentially have a decent relationship in the future. Its what I hope for, cause I do have a lot of respect for her. We had an amazing dinner and then watched some TV, along with the finale of Glee! Was SO happy with it. I mean come on, an entire medley of Journey? WIN. Finn and Rachel singing “Faithfully” after he tells her he loves her? Swooooon. ONLY thing I was slightly disappointed in was them leaving the Will/Emma thing open like they did, AGAIN. I just want them together writers! Damn you Rachel for having to break that moment. Another highlight was Jane Lynch as always. I LOVED the emotional side of Sue that came out and them showing that she really does love the kids. Was so heartwarming. And omg, almost forgot: IDINA!! I really hope that they bring her back in future episodes of the show, she was such a beautiful addition to the show, and come on, its Idina Menzel. That woman’s voice can send chills up and down my spine. Incredible. If you need proof of her amazingness, youtube her singing (and being the ORIGINAL to sing) Defying Gravity from Wicked. Sigh. Beautiful. And her storyline with Quinn was remarkable. I wasn’t expecting that until Idina went to the hospital and was standing at the nursery, but it was a beautiful touch. I was impressed. Like I said earlier

NOW – the countdown begins till True Blood! 5 more days! GAH I cant wait! Im going to be helping Angel still with the True Blood site that we had started a year ago and haven’t really done anything with yet lol. Plus I think it will be nice to jump back in the boat of fansites. I just won’t let myself get the way I was before, and all will be well Plus it helps having a dedicated co-owner to work things out with. Takes the workload to 50% lol.

I think I had something else to talk about but I can’t remember so Ill save that for another post So Im gonna jet for now but once I remember what it was I wanted to talk about, Ill be back along with omg – Lady Gaga’s “Alejandro” video!

Posted on Jun 09 2010 @ 1:56 pm | Posted In: Family, General, Online | Comment?

I saw this post made on both Angel’s and Rochelle’s blog which I figure is an EMB project but I found it interesting and decided to steal it. So here we go:

Dear Mom –

Thank you. Thank you for everything you have done and sacrificed for me and my siblings. I know I dont always seem to appreciate your hard work and love but I do, every minute of every day. You are so important to me and the person that I am that I can’t even put into the proper words how grateful I am to have YOU as my mother.

Growing up – after the divorce from dad, I know things weren’t easy. We struggled. A lot. Yet you did everything you could to raise 3 children (soon 4 after Brittany ) alone to the best of your ability. None of us have ever been arrested, on drugs, or anything else that some children and families struggle with. That was because of you and your wonderful influence on us. I know you blame yourself for things that have happened in the past (I dont wish to discuss here), but know that there isn’t one ounce of me that ever pointed the finger of blame. I love and thank you more than I ever have for believing and trusting me. There was no question in your eyes all those years ago and still to this day – that means the world to me.

There are things you do that hurt me. There are things you do that upset me. But I know through it all, you are the wind beneath my wings and the reason for the person I am today.

You have done things in the past that have made me question your love for me. Not to mention your patience and mood swings account for a lot of the reasons there are times I have to distance myself from you. But I know at the end, we will be okay. I live with no regrets, which is part of the reason I don’t stay mad at you for long. I can’t. God forbid something happens and that is how things are left. I couldn’t live with myself.

I’d rather live each day of my life knowing that I fought through the hard times, the stubborn-ness, and even the mood swings to have the relationship I do with you. You are my mother, my hero, and my best friend. I thank you for all you have done for me – I certainly wouldn’t be the person I am today without such a wonderful influence.

I love you mom. <3

Posted on Jun 02 2010 @ 6:33 pm | Posted In: Family, Love | 1 Comment

So I’m here…I’m alive…I’m finally updating? I really want to get myself on a schedule to blog everyday. I do miss writing and just spewing off about anything and nothing but I am pretty much talking to myself which I can do without typing it lol. It’s not like I blog cause I want thousands of followers but let’s face it, blog owners – isn’t it exciting signing in and seeing a new comment from someone? Don’t lie – you know it is I should probably just try and affiliate with people and join in on some communities but honestly – my interest in a lot of those things is lacking. I don’t have the patience to join a message board anymore and take the chance of my account being deleted in 30 days if I don’t make a certain number of posts. I don’t want to feel obligated, I just want to be able to go and chat if I want. If that makes sense. I’ll try and put myself out there a bit more I suppose

So in an attempt to find something interesting to talk about – I googled “Blog ideas” and got like all professional, “speak to your readers about article directories” and shit. So yeah…no. Anyone have any suggestions on topics or even places that they go to, to help with topics? Soon as I get myself into a rountine here, hopefully I can start doing some paid blogging – woot more money

I gotta remind myself to go home tonight, find my digital and charger and actually plug it in to charge it. I wanna start a project with Mike and I for a photo album but I keep forgetting. Basically I wanna do a 365 project but I want to actually print the pictures out and keep them in an album, so we can look back at them years from now and just reminisce.

Speaking of Mike, we just passed our 6 month wedding anniversary! I know there are people out there that have been married for years and 6 months doesn’t sound like that big of a deal but I’m really excited Married life is totally and completely wonderful. We have obviously had some bumps along the road but I wouldn’t ask to not have them. We have grown and learned from them and I am so lucky and blessed to have him in my life. He is amazing and truly one in a million.

We’ve been discussing the “when to have children” topic more and more lately. I think we have both concluded that probably in like 2-3 years. We are really enjoying it being just the two of us right now. Not to say a child wouldn’t be a wonderful and welcomed addition but for the time being, we enjoy having the ability to come and go as we please and just coming home to each other. We also want to work out some finances before we start taking that step more seriously. I know what everyone says, “you will never be ready emotionally or financially” so I’ll reword: we want to be in a better place then we are now.

Now that he is working again, we are doing much better then we were for a few months there with the break in between his jobs. We are in a comfortable place and will be even better when he gets his promotion to assistant manager, so the bills are getting lower and lower! Can’t wait till they are gone, one and for all. After they are paid off, we are following my dad’s advice and not putting anything on a credit card unless we will have the cash to pay it off the following month. Especially if we are talking about kids and all, I want us to both be more financially responsible. Let’s face it – not many people are in their 20’s lol. But we are getting there and learning!

In other news, we had a bit of a scare with Morticia this week. She was being really distant, hiding under the bed for a couple days, and when we got closer to her – when she would let us, her ears were scabbed and she was losing a lot of hair. Not to mention her personality completely changed, she has never been a really social cat but she is at least sometimes really cuddly and she’s been staying away from everyone and not letting anyone but Mike and I near her, and even when we get close, its only for a few moments and she runs off. I googled her symptoms and there were three things it could have been: 1. allergy to fleas (but neither her or the other 2 pets have fleas), 2. allergy to pollen (what I believed it was since we have our windows open and its been said this is one of the worst pollen seasons we have had in years) or 3. ringworm (which I ruled out since neither of the other 2 pets have it or us and we can get it from animals and vice versa). Mike took her to the vet Tuesday morning and they determined it was ringworm. We have NO idea how she could have contracted it since she’s a strictly indoor cat, but they said it could have been from a food allergy. Mike did admit that the wet food that he gave them last week was turkey and whenever he feeds it to them (which is maybe once a week) its normally beef or chicken and they are fine. So we got rid of the turkey and have been force feeding her medication through a dropper into her mouth twice a day and have to give her another med once every two weeks (yeah I dont get the every two weeks thing either) to help clear up the scabbing and scarring. Today will be the 4th day she takes the meds and I’m not sure I’m seeing much of a difference yet but then again, I don’t really see her much since Mike gives her the meds and when he isn’t, she’s hiding Hopefully it gets cleared up soon. I gotta take some pictures of our babies and post them. I’m such a proud momma, they are the cutest kids on the block

On that note, I’m gonna close this entry since its ridiculously long and I wanna read a chapter or two of my book since Im REALLY bored. Then I get to go home and rush around like a chicken with its head cut off to get ready for dinner at Mike’s moms house since we didn’t get to see her for Mother’s Day on Sunday. Till HOPEFULLY tomorrow!

Posted on May 14 2010 @ 7:01 pm | Posted In: Animals, Finances, General, Love, Site | 1 Comment

Wow – my life has been so unbelievably boring in regards to actually updating lol. Not like anyone reads this anyway, just kinda my place to talk to myself There are places for people like me, I know.

Went and saw Alice in Wonderland in 3D on Saturday with Mike, Laura and her boyfriend Aaron. LOVED it! Not enough words in the world to explain how beautiful and perfect it was. I understand some peoples complaints that Johnny as the Mad Hatter got a little Jack Sparrow-ish at times but nonetheless, he was a stand out performance for me. He was so artistic and creative, it was wonderful to watch. How anyone could disagree that he is one of the greatest actors of our time, boggles my mind. Anyway – go see Alice, you wont regret it

Other than that, nothing new really. Been working on the “branch off of Pops” forum. Really excited about it actually. It’ll be nice to still stay in touch with everyone but have a more generalized place to go. I had posted a poll on Pops asking how many people were interested in possibly staying in touch through a more non-subjected forum and was surprised to see a 17/1 outcome in favor of it (as of yesterday those were the numbers). I think a lot of people have grown out of their fandom and its what happens with fansites, there are cycles upon cycles of fans, but once the owner loses that fandom, there is no reason for the place to exist. I respect people that can run fansites for LONG periods of time. I feel like I made a statement and served a purpose with Pops. Ive had the site for about 4-5 years, I feel like that is quite an accomplishment. And Im proud of what I (along with the rest of my staff) did with it, but its time to move on. Like I said in previous posts, I have my reasons but my biggest one is that I have no passion left for it. I feel as though it was drained out of me, so technically – those who wanted to win, did and thats fine by me I feel like Im getting some of my life back. I think this new venture will be a fun one. While I dont expect the new forum to be as big of a success, I do plan on giving it a good shot and keeping friends and “family” together.

Still been playing way too much WoW outside of that lol. But for once in a really long time, Im enjoying it. Mike and I are having a blast playing together lately and have met some really great people. My priest is almost 80! 2.5 levels to go – Im so excited. Then after she is good and ready to go, its on to leveling a tank. After that, I dont think Ill be leveling anything for quite some time lol. It’ll be nice to have an 80 of everything though, leave my options open for doing something different occasionally. Outside of some stupid people Ive come in contact with in runs, healing is a lot of fun so Im both looking forward and scared shitless of healing raids LOL. That wont be happening for quite a while though. Got some better gears that need to be picked up

I suppose thats it for now, updated on my not so interesting, pretty boring life at the moment lol.

Posted on Mar 24 2010 @ 1:17 pm | Posted In: Friends, Games, General, Online | 2 Comments

Men must be seriously hating the male Hollywood community right about now. Between Tiger Woods, Jesse James and the slew of other scumbag men (husbands, mind you) that have been cheating on their wives these past couple years, men everywhere are probably being scrutinized lol.

I feel so stupid saying this but I geniunely am sad and disappointed about the Sandra Bullock/Jesse James thing. I REALLY thought they were such a loving, beautiful, in love couple. He might have deserved an Oscar as well this year for all the fakeness he was showing during the awards season, standing by her side, crying for her and comments like, “she takes my breath away” and shit. Not to mention, have you all SEEN the chick he cheated with? Don’t misunderstand, its NOTHING to do with the tattoos, I have a ton myself so major tattoo love here (except for that retarded one on her forehead, I mean seriously, wtf), but she is really NOT pretty. Bangin bod and tits, sure – but you put her up next to Sandra Bullock and yeah, no comparison.

Don’t these men realize that they will ALWAYS get caught? Is it REALLY worth it? I mean, you dont wanna be with your wife anymore, then LEAVE and get divorced. Don’t disrespect her, her love or her dignity to be an asshole and screw around behind her back. These ones in Hollywood, sleeping with nobodies, make me laugh even more at their stupidity. Do they honestly believe this person is gonna keep their mouth shut forever instead of “selling” their story? Pathetic. Keep it in your pants guys, seriously.

I can only imagine how Sandra is feeling right now Especially after talking him up so much these past few weeks when she was winning awards left and right. Nice Jesse, way to take her Oscar high away from her. Ass.

Posted on Mar 19 2010 @ 3:14 pm | Posted In: General, Rants | Comment?

There is a large part of me that feels somewhat bad for abandoning my Megan Mullally site lol. I logged in there today for the first time in what feels like forever and saw that even though its limited and not much, people still visit and post. I wish I had the desire to continue with it but I just dont. My passion for all things Megan are virtually non-existant. So much so that I got asked today, “did you apply to that butter contest?” I’m sure most if not all of you have seen that “I Can’t Believe its Not Butter” commercial with Megan in it. Well apparently there is some contest going on that you can register and win a trip to LA to meet her. Yeeeeeah. No lol.

I have no reason or want to post on Pops anymore but Im trying to think of a way to keep everyone together. There is a part of me that is thinking, “maybe a generalized forum would work out better” meaning a place where people can just go and talk about anything with no real topic but then there are still people on Pops that are Megan obsessed so Im not sure if that is the right direction to go cause they might still make it a Megan forum anyway lol. There are some people there that I miss so it makes it hard to just walk away.

If I did make a generalized forum, Im not talking about stealing members from other forums, it would just be a place for Pops members to go to and keep in touch with one another. What do you all think? I need some advice.

Posted on Mar 12 2010 @ 3:58 pm | Posted In: Online | 1 Comment

Okay so Im a little fail at the whole blog thing already. I desperately wanted this thing so Im seriously gonna do my best to keep up on it. I just wish I was even slightly more interesting lol.

Im stuck at work for the moment but Mike is at home waiting for the Comcast guy to get out there and hopefully (more like better), fix our internet. Its been acting so stupid for like 2-3 days now. So much so that it kept continuously kicking me from WoW which in the middle of a 25 man raid is not good lol. Thankfully I wasn’t the only one having issues so no one was bitchy about it, but still….annoying. We also have maintenance coming out to hopefully replace our dishwasher. Theyve been out 2-3 times already for the same problem, so Im thinking they might be catching the point that its time to just replace the damn thing. Basically its holding large amounts of water at the bottom and isnt cleaning anything. And frankly, Im tired of paying more on our electric bill to run a dishwasher that doesn’t wash dishes.

Good news is, Mike is finally working again! He got a job at Gamestop which is right up his alley and he loves it, so Im happy for that. He’s also already in the running to be promoted to Supervisor, so hopefully we will find out next week if he gets that. I might also look into doing something a little extra too, maybe paid blogging or something. If anyone can make any suggestions, Id greatly appreciate it. Money is still rather tight till he starts getting more hours so every penny helps.

Ive been slowly pulling myself out of this minor slump Ive been in lately. Mostly depression due to the money issues, Mike being out of work and etc. Its enough to drive anyone crazy, and anyone that has been there, knows it. Im feeling a bit more confident that we will be okay and things will work out but it’s still tough. As mushy as it sounds though, as long as Ive got him, I dont care what it takes. So it’ll work out

Within the last year though, a lot has changed in my life. I’ve cut out some really poisonous people that were doing nothing but making my life more difficult, started living for myself and the people that have made a difference in my life. I’ve learned a lot, I’ve made a lot of mistakes. And I’m not gonna lie and say I don’t miss some of those people I no longer speak or have a relationship with. I miss them, but I don’t miss the drama that they brought me. I don’t miss the lies. The broken promises. The heartache. The stress and etc. For a long time, I ran a pretty popular fansite, I devoted everything I had to it, I loved and cherished it, until it stopped being fun because I was being told how to run it and what to do by some pretty important people. It got to the point where even doing it “for the fans” wasn’t enough. My work and effort went unappreciated. I ran this site for what would have been 4-5 years I think this year. And I probably would still be running it if it could have been treated the way it was intended, as a place to bring fans together. Too many politics got involved, and once I put my foot down and started doing things my way again, I got cut off. Those “important people”, suddenly wanted nothing to do with me. It was at that moment that I realized my sanity was more important. Don’t misunderstand, the website is still in existance and floating around, I just havent touched or logged into it for what feels like months. My passion and love for it, went out the window. Along with my creativity and desire to do something again for a celebrity that I now feel, doesn’t appreciate their fans. The domain for that site expires in June I believe and I’m torn on what to do. I know based on everything I’ve just said, it sounds like such an easy decision. Delete the site and move on with your life. But I’m not torn on the subject matter, I know for a fact thats a period of my life I want to be past me, it’s the time, the money, the effort, the content, all the work put into it that makes it so hard to just click a delete button and say “sayanora” to all that hard work. I would love to dedicate that hard work, effort and passion into another site (Lady Gaga with Megan or True Blood with Angel) but I’m still scarred in a way, I know that sounds SO stupid but I’m terrified of it happening all over again. I love running fansites, it’s a fun and desireable project for me, I just don’t want to get hurt again. I know it sounds SO stupid to be hurt over a fansite but you need to understand, I was in some very close inner circles and was basically betrayed. I was lied to constantly. To be lied to by anyone, hurts. This is the first time I’ve really publicly spoken about this whole incident and if on some off chance the people its about come across this, I don’t apologize for telling the truth. I’ve left names out of this for a reason. I’m not trying to damage peoples reputation or piss anyone off but I feel as though I can now move on from it completely and hopefully not think about it ever again. I’m so thankful for those that have been supportive and have listened to my numerous rants lol.

Speaking of online stuff, I really didn’t do anything with Lights this month. Ill probably be demoted and I’m thinking that will more than likely be for the best. I just dont have the time right now to dedicate to making a certain number of threads a day and etc. I haven’t visited Ecstasy in awhile, I might have to log in there and start chatting away. Hopefully Ill be welcomed back so simply.

Happier discussions! Mike and I are going to a little house party tomorrow night at Crystal and Mike’s house and hopefully getting our drink on. I’ve been craving liquor lol. Then on Saturday I think we are going to see Alice in Wonderland with my dad and his fiancee, Cat. And on Sunday, we have our friends Tara and Mike’s (yeah I know a LOT of Mike’s =/) daughters birthday party at Chuck E’ Cheese! I think I’m more excited then her for the Chuck E’ Cheese party I pathetically had my 25th birthday there LOL! Don’t judge me, we had a friggin blast lol. Their pizza may smell like sweat but om nom nom, its so good <3 Outside of those plans, you will probably find me on WoW. My priest is almost 80! Yayyy! Can’t wait to have something besides dps to play lol.

Sorry for the enormously long post lol, just had to get some things off my chest and obviously do a bit of a catch up since Ive been fail on the updates. Thankfully I have Angel to yell at me to update like a blogger alarm clock so as long as she keeps doing that, hopefully Ill get better lol.

Posted on Mar 04 2010 @ 4:24 pm | Posted In: Finances, General, Online, Personal | 2 Comments

Well here I am. In my new little internet world home. Took me awhile to get here eh? Problem at the airport, what can I say?

I never really was a fan of those whole, “this is my new blog, blah blah blah” posts so Im just gonna leave it short and simple and then actually talk about something that MIGHT interest you. MIGHT. I can be very uninteresting at times. But maybe that makes me interesting. I dont know. Oh I ramble a lot if you couldn’t tell that already. Ramble, ramble, ramble. Quick shoutouts to the two people that actually made this blog possible since Im slow and can not pick up on actually building and designing a website. Although, I did install Wordpress myself Thank you, thank you. I know you’re impressed. Anyway – big thanks to Leigh for the wonderful layout, coding and etc that is so perfect it’s borderline sickening And also thank you to Angel for the hosting, the tweaking and all around patience to deal with me and my million questions when it comes to starting these things. She’s only been with me through three blogs now. I think she knows the questions before I even ask them at this point.

I still have a few little things to do around here, but my goal is to pretty much keep this place simple. Im not into all the glitz and glam, I moreso want this to be a place I can vent to, let people get to know me and just talk. But I am looking for people to add to that pretty little list to the right that says, “Blogroll” You know you wanna read my ranting and raving everyday so just comment, add me, Ill add you, we’ll be bloggie bffs and live happily ever after.

I’m currently in the process of trying to finish my monthly activity check over on Lights MB which is proving harder then you’d think. I should finish without a problem, I only have 10 more threads to make in General and 8 more in Celeb Gossip but General kicks my ass. I am so not interesting enough to come up with 30 threads a month about myself lol. But Ill get there. I did it last month, I can do it this month. Then I get to do it again next month and that might push me over the edge lol.

Other than that, been playing a lot of World of Warcraft with the hubs lately. Don’t know why I ever left the game honestly. I know I needed a break and I’m grateful I stepped away to some extent but I missed it like crazy lol. Currently have my two 80’s, a rogue and a hunter and we are also working on a couple of alts with Mike’s brother and two friends. Its kind of nice cause we always have a full group if we are all on at the same time. I have a 47 priest that I’m working on, along with a 27 shaman, 26 warlock and 18 pally. I made a mage last night though too cause well….I’m insane and don’t have enough characters to worry about apparently. It’s those damn heirloom pieces that raise your experience by 20% if you have two pieces that make it so tempting

For those of you who don’t play WoW and just read that whole paragraph like, “wtf huh?” I apologize. Im a sad, pathetic gamer at heart. It’s what happens when you have two much older brothers as a child. My husband LOVES it though so I suppose its a redeeming quality for men.

Okay, enough of my rambling, I can’t seem to stop and I really should since well…..idk lol.

Posted on Jan 27 2010 @ 3:21 pm | Posted In: Games, General, Site | 1 Comment